Isaac is 18 months old!

Today my baby boy is officially a toddler. He is 18 months old. Weights 26lbs, is 2 foot 8, and speaks about 30 words. He uses a fork, has an attitude, likes to spit out food, and his favorite show is Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I find it so hard to believe that a year ago he couldn't even sit up or crawl. Life is so amazing. Happy Toddler day little man.

...4,5,6....Um.

Well it looks like the road to conceive again will be a hard one, again. My cycles have become so infrequent and erratic that I still have no idea if I ovulated or not. I really didn't want to conceive with Doctor intervention. Next month I will be taking my temperature everyday. The husband went back to his old job, so we are spending more time together, more then I would like actually, but what am I going to do, ha ha. He has been off for two weeks because of the rain we have been getting, but today he went back to work. Which on one hand has been a great thing, but one the other had horrible because I threw my back out about 5 days ago, and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. We were going through boxes in our storage room trying to get a little bit of spring cleaning done, and I must have picked them up wrong, I severely bruised my Trapizius muscle (the V shaped muscle between your shoulder blades) and was put on some muscle relaxants and Tylenol # 3s. I haven't been able to take anything today because I don't want to be a bad parent and fall asleep while watching the baby, but I did manage to get him to have a 3.5 hour nap today, which was also a 3.5 hour nap for me.
We are going to be moving soon. We found a great rental rate on an apartment suite we used to live in. Its a great size, family oriented, and in the area that we wanted Isaac to go to school in. The rental rate is also a nice dramatic change, we will be saving about $300+ dollars a month. The only downfall is we won't really but close to anything, where we are now I can walk to the train, the mall, the walmart, but there the closest thing is a 7-11, and I have to take the bus anywhere. But our doctor is right there in the same place as the 7-11.
Isaac is talking a lot more, he is 17 months old now, and seems to know what cause and effect are, its funny because I know people who know less about common sense then he does. He is so intelligent.
That's all for right now. :)

Here we go, 1,2,3.....CONCIEVE!

We are on the road again, trying for baby # 2. Technically we are only at the point of not preventing, but in August we will probably be using clomid to concieve if we have'nt already by then. I think Isaac is ready to be a big brother, you can tell he is so bored during the day if there is no one to play with, and we live in an apartment complex that doesnt cater to kids. In fact we live in the adult building, but we moved during a rental epidemic and had no children when we moved in, but there are other kids here. So, he really likes having other kids around, I am more scared of the division of attention as Isaac is my little miracle. Its not to say that we will even have another baby, but I want to try before I go and get my tubes tied. Thats all thats really new right now.

What a tangled web we weave

Wow, so much going on lately, its unreal. My husband started a new job this week, and it has been incredibly difficult on all of us, I am so use to him doing the bedtime routine for Isaac, and so was Isaac, that the transition has been incredibly difficult on Isaac and I. He is getting used to it, but its still challenging. It is also lonely eating dinner alone. As it was the only meal my husband and I ever really ate together.
I went off my post part um medication this past week too, and I never realised that I could be addicted to a legal substance. The withdrawls have not helped with the transitions this week, however, my moods have stabilized somewhat. I know that in time things will return to normal, but its a drastic change for all of us right now, and I really hate change.
I was on the road to wanting to have another baby, but have since changed my mind. If we are blessed enough to have another baby, then I am all for having another baby, but as for trying, medicating myself, going through emotional hell... It really isn't healthy for anyone, and Isaac is very much the baby in the family, that I would like to give him the chance to be.
I have started this herbal medicine kick lately. I am really against medications that cause such problems like Anti-depressants, that I think herbal is the way to go. With Isaac being so young too, there really is no option when he is sick, and he tends to get sick quite often. I don't mean for everything though, obviously if he were sick enough to need anti-biotics I would never deny him that, but for things like cold relief of teething pains, etc, herbal is the way to go.
Isaac has turned into a mighty firecracker. He chats non stop, has a very large vocabulary, and is starting to put words together, like "no done" for not done, and things of the same. He is 31.5 inches tall. He thinks that anything he puts up to his ear is a phone, even a piece of paper. He is starting to walk alone, meaning that we can actually take him to the mall and not worry that he is going to run away. Although I still bring the stroller just-in-case. And he has used the potty a few times. We aren't quite serious on the potty training frontier yet, but we have introduced it to him, and he has gone a few times, making me very proud.
That is about all right now, it has been a while since an update. I hope it finds you well.

Talk Talk Talk Talk

Isaac has started (and has yet to stop) talking! He doesnt quite grasp what he is saying, but is mimicing like crazy! He blabbers too, non stop, its so cute. The other morning (5am) I awoke to him singing in his crib.
Having a toddler is not as bad as I thought, its getting easier.

Le Sigh.

Alright, I have to admit that I am scared of toddlers. They scare the bejebus out of me! They are like small people that have attitude and talk back, they hit and you can't hit them back. Ok....So Isaac is going to be a toddler. I honestly can not say that I will be scared of him because I still see him as that tiny little baby I gave birth to a year ago.
Isaac is walking, attempting to talk and dance. He makes me laugh and smile everyday, and laitly, cry a little too. I am losing my baby, he is going to be 1!
Ikes dad and I discussed having another child recently, but I think the urge was more of missing the small quiet person I had in the house, when really, if you think about the logic, I would have to attempt to get pregnant again, which would be months, weeks and maybe years of failed cycles, medications and sweari9ng at God for no apparent reason, then when I finally did get pregnant I would be on nasty medication for 12 weeks, would probably bleed and scare the crap out of myself. I would gain another insane amount of weight due to inactivity because I am scared to losing said baby, then complaining of every ache and pain for 9 months, to end with edema, and last but not least pushing another watermelon out. Then there is the fun afterwards, the newborn isnt crying/waking, we must set the alarm every 5 mins to feed it, it has colic and you live in a one floor apartment, where you would like to throw said newborn out a window, lol. Then there is teething, and seperation anxiety, and this is all just the first year! Ok ok, don't get me wrong, I love being a parent, I love Isaac very much, but this past year, atleast the first 6 months were pure sleep deprived hell. So no, not any time soon will we be having another child, we will be enjoying the one we have.

Ok, rant over..

11 months old

It is so hard to believe that Isaac is almost a year old already, I still feel like he is just a little bean inside of me. Since 2004 DH and I attempted to have a child, with such heartache and frustration, to be celebrating a whole year of life with Isaac is amazing. He is a big boy, weighing 23.5lbs, he is within the 75th percentile. He started to walk at the very beginning of October, and he is blabbing a lot, which is so sweet. He has started to smile and flirt with whomever will give him the time of day. I love being a mother so much.