Alright, I have to admit that I am scared of toddlers. They scare the bejebus out of me! They are like small people that have attitude and talk back, they hit and you can't hit them back. Ok....So Isaac is going to be a toddler. I honestly can not say that I will be scared of him because I still see him as that tiny little baby I gave birth to a year ago.
Isaac is walking, attempting to talk and dance. He makes me laugh and smile everyday, and laitly, cry a little too. I am losing my baby, he is going to be 1!
Ikes dad and I discussed having another child recently, but I think the urge was more of missing the small quiet person I had in the house, when really, if you think about the logic, I would have to attempt to get pregnant again, which would be months, weeks and maybe years of failed cycles, medications and sweari9ng at God for no apparent reason, then when I finally did get pregnant I would be on nasty medication for 12 weeks, would probably bleed and scare the crap out of myself. I would gain another insane amount of weight due to inactivity because I am scared to losing said baby, then complaining of every ache and pain for 9 months, to end with edema, and last but not least pushing another watermelon out. Then there is the fun afterwards, the newborn isnt crying/waking, we must set the alarm every 5 mins to feed it, it has colic and you live in a one floor apartment, where you would like to throw said newborn out a window, lol. Then there is teething, and seperation anxiety, and this is all just the first year! Ok ok, don't get me wrong, I love being a parent, I love Isaac very much, but this past year, atleast the first 6 months were pure sleep deprived hell. So no, not any time soon will we be having another child, we will be enjoying the one we have.
Ok, rant over..
