Who knew Ovulation could make someone so happy?

This month we decided to officially try again. I have had a bad few months with messed up cycles and have been on the pill for the last 3 just to level things out, but figured I might as well give it a try, and low and behold, charting my fertility for the last 18 days and I got a nice surprise. I ovulated!!!! On my own, no medication, no help, all by myself!. I still won't know for at least 10 days whether I am pregnant or not, but who cares right now right? Take it step by step and day by day!!! I am very excited and had to share that.

On The Road Again...to TTC that is

After a 3 month break on the pill and having my first cycle return a few days later after 5 months of non-stop spotting, and no answers; we finally decided we want to have another baby. I have lost 10lbs, I have a goal of 30lbs, just so we can get my cycles back on track. I had a normal cycle and have been using ovulation test sticks since cycle day 9. I am on cycle day 14 now, and still no significant change in the tests. I know with PCOS I will probably ovulate late, but it is still hard on me to never see it positive. I said that if Isaac ever asked me for a brother or sister then we would go all the way and do the fertility meds and tests etc again, and he asked me for a baby, so I am on the ball, lol. I am using the opks right now just to see if I do ovulate at all, not necessarily to get pregnant, I mean, if it happens it happens, but we want to know if it is even still possible for me to even get pregnant again. I am really scared to miscarry again, after all that we went through to have Isaac I just don't know if my body will let me go through it again, or my mind for that matter.
Things are going well here though, finally feeling like spring. We were living in some kind of snowmageddon there for a while, but I can finally see grass on my front yard. Isaac is doing well, speaking articulately, I can almost understand 90% of what he says now. That's all, just needed to update.

Surviving the worst pain I have ever had in my life.

It started February 21st at 4:30pm. We had just finished eating spaghetti, a not so much favorite, but easy meal in my family. I started to get this sharp pain in my tooth at the back of my mouth (next to the bottom left wisdom tooth) This tooth is broken, and has been for the last year, mostly a filling that came out that I ignored. I knew it was a tooth ache, and not one that was going to go away. Within an hour I was wailing, this was the worst pain you could ever imagine, it hurt more then when I broke my collarbone when I was 10, it hurt more then the 36 hour labour I had with my first birth, it was worse then pushing Isaac out. I had never experienced pain this severe in my life. During the time I am wailing and screaming, sweating and shaking, my wonderful husband is calling every dentist in the city to see if I can get an emergency visit in. However, today is Family Day in Alberta, and nothing is open, and if it was, it closed at 4....its 6pm by this point. He finally got a hold of someone, but they were in Edmonton and wouldn't be able to do anything until the next morning.....OMG what am I going to do? This dentist suggested going to the hospital. We went to the ER and withing half an hour I was seen at minor treatment where they gave me a shot of marcaine (stronger then lidocaine) which I was told would last 5 hours and a prescription of Percocets. The pain was still there before that though, but it was much less intense, I could feel my face go numb from jaw to lip, it was such a strange sensation. I popped 2 percosets and went to bed. The freezing wore off at 8 am, I was so lucky to get 12 hours of relief so I could sleep. My dentist doesnt open until 11 though, so I still had to wait. And by the time they called they couldn't see me until 1:30pm anyway, omg, I had had enough!! I popped more percs and slept (thank God for husbands on unemployment who don't mind taking over the house)
I finally get to the dentist, and he instantly freezes it. He doesn't know if he has time to pull it, and I may have to make an appointment for tomorrow. But if I didn't mind waiting he could do it in an hour. Well, I have already waiting this long, another hour is not going to make a difference, and at least I was frozen for the time being.
He gets to me, gives me at least 10 more shots of freezing, and I can still kind of feel it, but its more pressure then anything. The x-ray showed that my root nerves were infected all the way down. And hour later, a lot of pulling and breaking, and the tooth is finally out. I was sent on my way home.
Today is 6 days of excruciating pain, when you are finally just done, can no longer do it, can deal anymore, and I have to go back to the dentist.

And so, I have come and gone to the dentist. My Dentist figures I have pretty bad bacterial infection and prescribed a different antibiotic and more ibuprofen, he told me he actually had to cut the gum open when he pulled it. So we wait and see again if this will do the trick.

January concluded. Randomness

We are slowly getting used to our new house, it creaks a lot. At first I didn`t really like it here, but I am warming up to it. Our downstairs neighbour is nice, I really like her, but there are some things I don`t like about it. I feel guilty every time Isaac thumps on the floor, so I yell at him to walk nice, and no `ribbiting` in the house. ( like frogs yes, ribbit jump)
We just celebrated my goddaughter Alexis`s 3rd birthday on the 23rd of January, Isaac hadn`t seen her since before Christmas, so it was really exciting for him. We had a lot of fun but didn't stay long, Isaac had a bad attitude all day.
Isaac has had a lot of sleep problems since we moved, he says he has monsters in his room, always wants to sleep in the livingroom and never sleeps for more then 7 hrs. He has also stopped taking daily naps. I really don`t know what it is. He has had a bit of an issue with his asthma at night, and we figure the lady downstairs must smoke, even though we live in a smoke free house, we did discuss it with our landlord and she said she would take care of it.
The weather is finally nice here, we had a week of nice weather, then a nasty blizzard, and now it is back to being nice. I enjoy seeing the sunshine.
My bff is 21weeks pregnant, and just found out she is having a boy, after having two girls, we are all really excited for them.
Ok, got all my news out.

Gallbladder attack like Satan's hellfire in my stomach!

Oh my goodness. I have never been in so much pain in my life. On Wednesday night, I ate Spagetti and cheese, a handful of regular lays chips, and at 11pm, I felt like I was dying. I kept having to burp, but couldnt. I had this horrible pain just under my ribcage on my right side, and right through to my back. I did not sleep a wink that night, and vomited for 3 hours straight. I finally woke Chris up at 7 to take me to the hospital, but he made it a point that the doctor opened at 9am, and since the ER has been a waiting disaster, waiting to see the DR might be faster. I got an appointment at 11:45, by this time the pain had subsided quite a bit. My doctor poked and proded me, made me cry, did this did that, asked athousand questions, then told me it was likely my Gallbladder. He called it Cholecystitis, basically gallstones in my inflamed gallbladder. I am the right age and the right weight for it to happen. He ran a lot of bloodtests and I have an ultrasound on Monday, but I have to wait for results and such before I know for sure. But I am pretty sure. He gave me some Tylenol #3 and gravol, and the combination of the two make me warm and fuzzy inside. I slept finally, for 14 hours, that was nice after not being able to at all, and I am on a diet of the plain and bland. After not eatting for a whole day my stomach was flat for the first time in years, lol. I cannot eat anything with highfat, or even moderate fat, I have to eat salads and drink fluids. Its good, a good kickstart to a healthier new year.
Anyhow, thats all so far. The pain is still there, but not as predominant as it was before, just a dull ache now. I am feeling somewhat better, but not really.
More to come when I find out more.

Moving, and sick.

It has been a really tough month here, December can go straight to he** for all I care. My poor child has been so ill, he had a lung infection, and just as he was getting over it, I got really sick with bronchitis, and he got sick again. We have been dealing with non stop sleeping and fevers. We also moved within all of this. So not only is Ikey dealing with being super sick and sleepy, he is also attempting to adjust to his new surrounding. We also discovered that he is severely allergic to dogs while he was being babysat by his Gramma and Papa. He had a bit of a bad hive reaction on Christmas Day at my parents, but on the 29th of December at his other gma and papa's he because puffy and swollen. We needed to take him to the hospital, even though they didn't do anything, I wanted to be there just in case he went anaphylaxic. The doctor switched him from Benadryl to Clairatin.
I am finally better, I had to take 3 different regimes of medications to find the right combination, I was diagnosed with Bronchial Pneumonia, but my lungs were clear, I just could not catch my breath for the life of me. I am finally better though after I was put on prednisone for 5 days. I feel sorry for people who have to take prednisone for longer then 5 days, they were so hard on my stomach I was on the verge of vomiting every second of the day. '
I haven't been getting much sleep, since Ikey has been sick he seems to whine all night in his sleep, then wake up and want to get up at 3am. I think on average I am getting about 4 hours a night, at least for the last week.
Christmas was nice, we had a nice little family morning, just the three of us, then we went to my in laws for the rest of the morning, then to my dads for the day and dinner, where we ate lasagna, mmmm. I love my parents lasagna. Our new years was uneventful, we had originally had plans to go to a friends house, but because Isaac had such a high fever we decided against it and spent the night at home, asleep before midnight (preparing to be up with the toddler at 3am).
It has been nice to start the new year off in a new house though, much better then living in an apartment, although I do miss it. Adjusting to house heat and water is different, and I find myself cold very often, and having everything in boxes isn't helping either, I can not find ANYTHING in my house, haha. So far so good.

TTC in The future?

So, we have hit an impass in the TTC world. Things with my body seem to be messed right up and I am not doing what I wish I could be, and that my friends is Ovulate. My body has completely stopped producing eggs. I am also suffering from the period from hell. I have been on it for what seems like forever. I had 11 days off while I was on 2 weeks of Prometrium (progesterone) to get it to stop, but just after I finished taking it, it came right back again. Hubby and I need to discuss somethings about the future of our family, as it looks like we may never have any more children. The "H" word (Hystorectomy) was thrown around in the doctors office today, or Ablasion, which is still difficult to hear, either way pregnancy is impossible. We are investigating the possibility of endometriosis on top of my PCOS. The doctor has put me on Seasonale birthcontrol, thats the kind that you take for 3 months in a row, so that we can stop the bleeding for a while and let my uterus rest, which seems to be the best, then we are going to visit the ideas again after 6 months or so. I really don't want to have to take another invasive approach to have a baby, so I think we will take it day by day. I am blessed to have Isaac, and if that is all that God will give me, then I remain truly blessed and will be happy with that.
We are moving (Thank gooooooodness) I am so happy to be getting out of here. I can not tell you how much I hate living in this neighbourhood, in this crappy expensive apartment. We found something much cheaper in a better neighbourhood closer to those we are closest to, much better. Have been doing a lot of cleaning and a lot of packing. There is 4 years worth of nastyness in this apartment, and the place we are moving to has no storage, but the upside of it, it is a house, and will be so much better for Isaac's asthma and allergies then this apartment.
Anyhow, thats it, thats all. I will update about the ttc stuff at a later date.